Celexa and counselling be hailed! :)

I gotta say that Celexa has given me my life back. I am able to not only be at home 24/7, but I am keeping all the kids home every day... well, I should say, WE are keeping all the kids home. James has been either working from the home office, or not working at all. But the frustration that I felt before I left is about 99 percent gone. I know it has mostly to do with the Celexa, but the counseling has helped a lot too. I have been able to mature beyond needing a parental figure through the counseling, my friends, and reading and learning about symbology, and unschooling philosophies. and of course through my wonderful husband's devotion to digging deep into his feelings, sharing them with me, and listening to me doing the same.
We have had a wonderful holiday season so far. We've taken the kids to movies, taken them swimming, hung out at home playing Guitar Hero, and watching movies, For the first New Year's Eve ever, our family is doing our own thing. Just like we did for Thanksgiving. We're going to Akron's First Night with the Nutt's, and swapping kids that night. Then on January 1st, we'll get together at our place, and play some Guitar Hero, and karaoke games. I am so enjoying being strong enough to feel like my own person.
Well, I'm being distracted by Aaron's friends who are spending the night for his birthday. Jonathon Kindig and Ethan Whitehead are having a hard time getting to sleep. I think it's after midnight already. I think I'll be sleeping in again tomorrow. :)
But the house is clean, I finished all the dishes, so it won't be hard for James in the morning to be with the kids while I sleep. I'm sitting on the couch with my laptop which miraculously is working on battery power. I'm gonna surf the net for a while...

Addendum to Bitchin' and Moanin'

Yes. I will heal. I am determined. I am strong. I will heal. I will achieve my dreams. I will make peace with my pain. I will care for my inner child, and be the adult that I know I am.
I AM. I AM AT PEACE. I LOVE MY FAMILY. I WILL HEAL. I AM.

So what did I do today?

Today I just sat and fed my soul. I read emails, I read blogs, I drew, and I opened my heart to possibility. I stated some of my heart mantras, and drew symbols of them. I communicated with people of like minds. To my friend, and fellow mother of many children, Kim Conti, and thru email to a new friend, Natalie, who is about to give birth in about a month, and to whom I am sending many positive thoughts for a warm, wonderful, orgasmic birth.
I am beginning to feel more comfortable here on my blog. Not so worried what "they" will think if they should stumble across it.
I'm becoming more comfortable in my own skin, too. Little by little, two steps forward, and one step back, and lean forward to make up for the step back... and lurch forward one more step, and catch myself, and take another step forward.
Oh to love your own self. That is my goal. To be compassionate enough to allow me to be myself, no guilt attached. I think it is an attainable one. Even that is a step forward. :)
Be at peace.
Me